Depression and decisions

I wanted to start a series on some of the thinking that I’m doing about depression this year. And the thing I’ve discovered so far is this: if you’re reading a book on depression that implies that you just need to make better decisions to become less depressed, you’re reading the wrong book.

From one angle, the above might be obvious: depression is a mental illness, and decisions are in the realm of the mind, and so decision making is going to be impaired in some way.

And yet, and yet: this is the principle implied by a swathe of the literature out there, especially from the Christian counseling movement. 1 The principle that if the depression sufferer chooses to do X then they will get Y. 2 And the flipside of that principle implies that failure to get better is a failure of good decision-making.

This comes partly from an Enlightenment view of the self. To put it simply: If I am because I think, then what I think will result in who I am. And if I think better, then I will make better decisions. 3

The criticism here is not that there is no truth to this, but that it is an unbalanced, non-biblical view of the self. We are more than what we choose to do. 4

In the end, the clearest indicator of this is the gospel; the glorious clarion that finds you—in your self—not in order to make better decisions. But to invite you—in your self—to a richer, fuller relational self, deep within the love of the Father.

  1. A view that has descended from Jay Adams, the founder of the Christian counseling movement.
  2. Where X is anything from self-contemplation, connecting with family, journalling, prayer, exercise, reading the Bible, and Y is anything from complete recovery from depression to a renewal of hope.
  3. And with the implication that, if you don’t think better, somehow, you’re not doing it right.
  4. After all, we are not essentially our minds, but we are fundamentally bodied selves too.

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